Good evening/night/morning cloud. I hope everyone is doing well today. I am doing well, thankfully. Its been busy but that’s a good thing. I woke up this morning to my mom calling me to help me work on my presentation. She was nice enough to give me an extra 20 minutes or so of pure sleep time. (Thanks for that mom!) When she called me back we got on Skype and went over what I’m going to do my trainer presentation on to be an “officially certified trainer” instead of the sub trainer they have me as now. So, we went over some basics like, ask them questions instead of talking their ear off and let them participate. Here are a few good questions to use and why and how to use them. It was, honestly, really fun. Plus I got to see my mom instead of just hear her voice, which was pretty cool. One thing I noticed about seeing her vs. just hearing her is I miss her. A bunch.
Ramblings of a Living Human
Good evening Cloud. I hope you’ve had a good day. I have. I started a new training class today. I’m doing food tasting. I have 6 trainees that showed up today and only 3 will be there tomorrow. I work everyday this week, which will be fun. One of my trainees is one of my friends which is difficult because she keeps interrupting the class with an inside joke or something and we’re the only ones who get it. It feels awkward because she’s bringing outside life into work areas and in front of people I’m training. I’m sure it is fine but, I don’t know. Maybe its just me making it awkward.
Morals
Hello cloud. Nice to see you again. I’m pretty bad at this whole blog thing because I get so busy with life that I tend to forget to post. It’s like that whole diary thing where you get a diary and you’re so excited that you write in it a couple times and then life catches up to you and you forget until you find it again. Then you go back and read your old entries and see what a good tool it is and start over again. I’m sure we’ve all thought of it this way, so I just felt like stating the obvious.
Life a Year Later
Hello cloud. Very long time without a visit. For this I do apologize. I just remembered my password and username into my blog. I will admit though, it is rather nice to be back. Some news, if you care to know: I am now 21 as of the 4th. I started this blog when I was 19 (almost 20) years old. Sad part is, I’ve only posted about 10 to 12 times in a little over a year. Well, life has had its surprises.
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Contemplative Queries
Working with people who want to heal as much as you do is such a magical experience. Working with people who truly support you in anything and everything you decide to do with your life is almost too good to be true. People oftentimes don’t understand that that is what people are doing when they don’t get mad at you for doing something they don’t agree with.
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Know Your Addictions
Addictions are amazing things. They’re sometimes so strong you don’t even know they exist until its all taken away from you. Then you feel as though everything you’ve ever known is crashing down around you and all you’re left with is a pile of beaten up rotting rubble that you don’t even want to look at but it’s all you have to look at so you find yourself staring morbidly. Watching. With a bizarre fascination. It’s almost like you witness an awful wreck involving 200 cars and you see smoke and hear people screaming, with fear and death dripping from every choking yelp. Fire leaping from cars just waiting to detonate a gas tank or two. And yet, all you can do is watch to see what happens next.
An Ugly Truth
Hello. I had a good day off. It was much needed after the past 2 days. I unfortunately slept till like noon, which was a little sad but I needed it. I watched some of Leo Laporte’s live streaming web show which was actually interesting. I was watching it with my friend of course. After that we went to the new Dunkin Donuts so I could bring some to my mother who just came in the state at like 5-6. My friend and I went to the mall to walk around and hang out. During which I did what I always do and I danced around the bush, metaphorically speaking, and basically lied to him about something that I didn’t even really care about.
I Think Its Time For An Upgrade
Well, hello. I am currently watching the movie “The Holiday”. So far it’s a good movie. I’m enjoying it quite a lot. It hooks me but I’m not sure if its in a good way or not. I actually think its not in a good way.
I find myself wanting to be loved by someone who will actually take care of me and care about me for me. But then I find myself scared out of my mind because I don’t even know how that would feel or what that would look like. I find myself bitter and jaded at the age of 19. I wasn’t always like this. But I’m ONLY 19! How can I be talking like this at such a young age? I’ve done some horrible things to some wonderful people. I’m not perfect by any means shape or form but I deserve to be treated with respect, love, and care.
Smile After Smile
Bonjour! It has been a long and arduous day. I went into work at 10:30 this morning hoping to earn good money today (or yesterday really.) I didn’t really get that busy this morning but I only had a 3 table section, so that’s to be expected. Its also a very good thing I only had a 3 table section because my knee has been a pain, literally, all day. I woke up this morning and bending it was a large task in and of itself. It definitely wasn’t comfortable to say the least. I went to my apt, because I stayed at my friends apt last night which was a nice change, to get ready for work. Putting my shoes on wasn’t easy either. So, anyway, at work I earned $70 this morning, which honestly isn’t that good and I was hoping for $100. My goal was to earn $200 for the whole day so I figured $100 this morning and $100 tonight. So, I was a little disappointed when I didn’t earn my goal. I clocked out at 4:30 this afternoon and sat down to eat thinking I didn’t have to be back on until 5 or 5:30 seeing as how I was a bar back. Five minutes after I sat down I had my manager come outside to me and say, “Chomp chomp! You’re being pulled on the floor tonight! We have a party of 12 going in your section in about 5 minutes.” and off he went into the building leaving me to finish.
Doubles All Around
Hello. Yes, it’s late, I know. I’m feeling the effects of it currently but I do have to admit it was a fantastic day. It started with waking up due to a call from my friend saying “Its snowing..” and me jolting out of bed, as awake as a groggy person can wake, as excited as a 5 year old seeing their first snow. I quickly get dressed and head over to his house to get something off of my laptop which has been so conveniently stored at his house. Unfortunately for me, he had to rush off to work. Due to the snow, he was sent home soon after and we got to play in the snow. We took pictures that I will be showing you. We followed up by going to Dunkin Donuts and getting some hot chocolate and munchkins! YUM! He decided it would be a good idea to get his little brothers and take them to The Preserve to play in the snow. I had a blast there too! We then took them back to their house and me back to mine because I had to be at work this evening.
