Hello cloud. Very long time without a visit. For this I do apologize. I just remembered my password and username into my blog. I will admit though, it is rather nice to be back. Some news, if you care to know: I am now 21 as of the 4th. I started this blog when I was 19 (almost 20) years old. Sad part is, I’ve only posted about 10 to 12 times in a little over a year. Well, life has had its surprises.
UPDATE:
1. I work at a little pizza joint called California Pizza Kitchen as a server/host/take-out.
2. My best friend and now ex boyfriend has been sort of removed from my immediate life due to a huge breakup which is still very painful and very difficult. I miss him a ton but can’t stay too focused on the loss because there is someone new in my life.
3. I have a new boyfriend. We’ve been dating for a little over a month now and he is a great guy. He is very into honesty and enjoys holding people to it. He is a huge country boy, which is strange for me, but it’s cute in a weird sort of way. He is a nerd which is always attractive to me. He gives me attention and is normally always there to talk things out with me (unless he is at work of course). He is a momma’s boy, which is slightly annoying but that’s something I need to heal because it shouldn’t be something I have a huge problem with. I’m glad he gets along with his mom. It means he treats her with respect and mostly she gives him respect. Perhaps not the same kind of respect but she does respect him.
4. I have interviewed with 2 different jobs:
A Chevy dealership
State Farm Insurance
Both seem like an upgrade from what I am doing now and they would both offer wonderful training for what I’m really meant to do with my life. Still something I’m working to figure out. I don’t know why this is so difficult for me to pinpoint. It almost seems as though I don’t want to figure it out completely because if I do then I’m stuck. Stuck with what I chose for the rest of my life. Which I know is false but I’m aware that there is a fear like that around my brain somewhere. Also, the one thing I’ve never let go of and worked my butt off since the day I started is self-healing. I’ve come far but not nearly as far as I’d like to have come. I almost feel like I keep hitting a layered brick/cast iron wall. Where I get through one wall and that leads me to another wall to break and then I do and there is another wall. I feel such confusion in life yet I also feel it being so simple. It simply comes down to whether I’m willing to do the work or not.
5. I have a puppy named Amber. She’s an American Staffordshire Terrier mixed with something else. She is adorable. She started as my (now) exes and my puppy. I love her so much and she is so sweet and beautiful. She is a handful though. She’ll be a year old late April. I might post pictures at some point soon. You’ll go crazy if you see her.
Anyway, it’s now 11:03 p.m. where I am and I’m getting sleepy. I will let this be my ending comment. Have and be a blessedly wonderful day and own your life. Own it to the point where no one can tell you what’s not yours. Love yourself and keep peace in your heart and mind.
Namaste
